In a few days it will be my grandma's birthday. She lived a long life and finished it not knowing there was a real world around her. She had returned to her childhood and beyond. 

 As the years pass Speedy Perkins becomes more amazing to me. I'm not sure if anyone else called her Speedy beside my dad but it fit her very well. I can't seem to remember a time when she wasn't doing something. She crochet, embroidered and made patchwork quilts during her quite time. The rest of the time she was busy with housework. That meant cleaning up and scrubbing down a out house.  Laundry being done just outside the kitchen door of their 3 room house. Grandma had a shed, near the back door were she kept things, I do remember the rinse tubs being in there, along with other household things but I don't know were her wash machine was kept.

 In 1964/65 they added on a new living room and kitchen and brought the bathroom and laundry into the house by their new door. How grandma lived and worked in that tiny house fascinated me and still does.

  Grandma was the baby of Great Grandpa's first family. Grandma W. died some time early in Speedy's life and she was taken in by her Uncle Jim and Aunt Lizzy. Speedy was the sunshine in Uncle Jim's life and he in hers. Aunt Lizzy set about raising Speedy to be a proper young woman in a proper house.

 I can just see Aunt Lizzy reading her how to book for 1900's and following it, to the letter. Her nerves being worn to that place were unstable ladies nerves get worn to. Uncle Jim giving Speedy that look that says "it's OK we will get though this". They made it until Speedy was in her teens, then life changed. It may have been the death of Uncle Jim, whatever it was, it sent Speedy back to Grandpa W's and his second family. 

 Uncle Jim and Aunt Lizzy could not have lived to far away from Grandpa because I know that Speedy was close to her 4 siblings. I can't help but think that she must have been a pet to them. Their last connection to their Mama.  

 Grandpa W married Grandma Rosie in his first year of widowhood and lots of children followed, so Speedy's return to the house came in handy but maybe not so happy. I have heard that she was more a maid then a family member. I think her siblings were gone from the house by then, if not her sister were soon to be.

 Time passed and a young man started showing up at the door in a courting mood. Byron was a tall good looking man, just one problem Byron's past. He too had been sent to live away from home. His dad had died and Byron was farmed out. Now, you may have heard that term before, I have and I have used it but I didn't really understand it, until I heard about grandpa's life.

 He and his brothers were busy doing little boy things, sister was mom's helper, life was as it should be. Then one day it all comes to an end, Dad dies.

 A couple, took in two of the boys and raise them as if they were their own. Making sure they were well schooled and able to work at a job they chose. 

Bryon went to a farmer, he didn't finish school and he wasn't part of the family. He was the farmhand a little boy working like a man. 

 Speedy and Bryon fall in love and those silly kids married. OH, the joy, baby 1-2 still glowing in joy, 3-4 joy is fading 5-6 it's gone,7 and 8 not again.  I must tell you, that, mom has said  she thinks they were pretty dumb, when it came to how to stop having babies. I agree but if they hadn't been I wouldn't be here mom is #7. 

 Loving someone does not make life wonderful everyday of the year. Bryon, did what men do, when, they don't know what to do and are to" manly" to ask for help. He good timed it, on the stool at the corner bar. Times were so good that his wife and kids went hungry for days even weeks, just so everyone in the tavern would know that Bryon was a great guy. 

 Speedy did just what a well brought up young woman does. She put on her apron and takes care of life as best as she can. Cooking, cleaning, sewing, gardening, canning, raising livestock and paying bills when she can get the money. Raising children using the Aunt Lizzy method, all the time deep in her heart hoping the day will come when Bryon will really become a man instead of the scared little boy he is.

 I'm not sure that day ever came. Bryon did give up his stool at the bar after something inside started bleeding and he was afraid he would die. By then Speedy had been broken so many times that she moved into the world of "No More I Won't Let You" but would, from time to time step out into Bryon's world. If you watched close you could see the unused love in her face, followed by questions of what happened and why did you leave me. Then she would turn and go back into that "No More World" and pick up a piece of hand work.

 Some people say they fell out of love, I don't believe that. I witnessed both of them looking at the other, with a loving, that passed like a gentle summer breeze, so soft you would not have notice unless you were still. The sad thing was, that, I was the one who saw the love and not the one being looked at. Now I find myself wondering what would her life have been like if only...

Todays list

1. Never eat chocolate candy then put a piece of bubble gum in your mouth. You will end up looking like your puppy after it has had a bite of your PB&J.

2. Never post a vacation spot on FaceBook unless you are really going there. Friends will see you and want to know when you are leaving or if you enjoyed the trip.....Please were am I going to get $7000.00 + for that kind of trip.

3. Dirt grows, if you don't think so just fall and hurt your ribs, then watch the dirt on the kitchen floor multiply hourly.

4. Spring is coming so you might want to think about washing your windows. Maybe not if the dirt is what is holding the window together.

5. Never talk about the need to lose weight, you will in fact have a great need for sweets followed by a great need for chips, more sweets, more chips on and on. Just write it on a piece of paper so your ears won't know and won't tell your brain.

6. Don't spend your afternoon looking at motorhomes on E-bay. You will find just what you need and that need will cost more then the house you are living in, with a lot less room.

I like my "new look" a big thanks to my administrative aide.

You could get lost spelling administrativeitaraisinimddd see what I mean

crochet
anyone?

Today Pa, HT and I had to go down to Fayetteville, I do mean down as it is really south of here.
Anyway, when we left the house it was gray and a little cold, no big deal, 650 AM ( The mother of country music station) tells us that rain is coming followed by a mixture and then snow. All of this is coming thru Nashville and heading towards Kentucky. Thank you we don't have to mess with it. Time and miles go by the sky gets grayer and there is a little rain here and there, I decide to find a Huntsville station to hear a weather report. Do you know, that when you are in the middle of Nowhere, it is not likley that you will pick up a raido station that will tell you were it is located. I gave up. What diffrence is it going make we were still going to Fayetteville.
Our visit is over and we head back north same gray, a spot of rain then another and another until we are home in rain rain rain.
HT decides that a quater mile from the house is a good spot to fall asleep. The plan becomes Pa gets the boy and I get the door and hope we all don't get to wet. Car stops, door opens and ice water hits us right in the face. What happened to going North? We get the boy down in bed, Pa is getting ready for work opens the door and fat snowflakes everywere.
When did we become part of Kentucky?

I seem to have lost my background.

Oh my, I just don't know how to feel about this, after all without a known background it is hard telling what people say.
It may be said, that, I am a woman who is renowned. In what way?
"She is grandiloquent," please no! Acclaimed, demented, genteel, cantankerous, immodest, reticent, magnificent,obtuse, eccentric...NO NO NO this will never do. I simply must have my background.

The Realm may be in great peril.

FarmWife you must restore order here at the palace before some knave institutes his villainous plan and purple vegetation covers the walls

The wonder of it all

There was a stirring in the air, was rain coming or just a wind? The day had been a long one, loading the car, saying goodbyes, driving country roads and Inter-states, wishing it was over.

The moon was weaving in and out of the clouds, brings melancholy to the evening sky and thoughts.

Her eyes showed the fear, the hopelessness, she was alone, there was nothing left, one step. one step and it would be over.
Had she only been still, she would be alive and he would have found her.

Now, it is his heart that feels pain, as he too steps out, the way she had.

Thus bringing this tale of woe to an end.




Her step damaged the front of my HHR and his the front of a Chevy truck.
You have to watch out for deer in the fall.